The some of the main
differences to me seems to be that the things the adults want are more solid
and yet more fleeting. They are more permanent but the happiness you gain from
them seams to pass much more quickly, and less pure. (If you are careful with
it) money or power will last a longer time then a sunset, or a rose. But after
you, for example get promoted by ratting out your best friend, or making up
rumors about them, you might feel a sense of accomplishment from that for a
bit. More power for you without them in the way! But you will probably feel as
your happiness was being tainted by something. Even working hard and finally
crawling your way up the corporate latter honestly may not feel genuine. So I
got a 5% pay bump. Now I can get internet access on my phone service, so what?
The moments are less of something you can look back on when you are older. The
adult moments also seem to me to be more quantifiable. You can tell how much
power you have over people by how much you can make them do. You can tell how
much money you have by counting it. You can’t quantify how happy a sunset or
flower makes you. Both lists show things that someone thinks will lead to
happiness. But why do adults think escape, or work, or reputation will lead
there? I think it must be taught to people, they learn different things to make
you happy as you grow up. Someone somewhere said to them “what are you doing?
You can’t be happy without power.” And they since they were convinced by
whomever it was that without power they wouldn’t be happy, they worked as hard
as they could trying to gain power. Another thing all the things on the adults
list is that they lead deeper and deeper into themselves. The more you drink,
the sadder you are that you have been drinking, the more you drink to hide
those feelings. You can always have more power. You can always have more money.
You can always have more respect. You can have more fun, and you can be
happier, but once you are truly happy you really stop thinking about other
things like that. If you are having fun with your friends on a water slide, and
you are laughing and playing and having a crazy fun time you aren’t going to be
thinking “oh I wish I had a bigger water slide, oh I wish I had more friends, I
wish we were having more fun”. You will be enjoying yourself. If you are
standing in your office on the top floor in the nicest one you might feel
happy. You probably will feel self-satisfaction with yourself. But in the back
of your mind you will be thinking, I like this feeling, how can I get more of
it? Always searching for more power. How you can make the next building and the
building after that yours. Basically
what I’m trying to say from all this is that since the happiness you get from
the adult list is less genuine, you are likely to feel less genuinely happy.
Losing your innocence and purity for the things you think matter right now,
might not matter in the long run.
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